Lyrics
Married to the ground
Written by Kaitlyn Otten
How can you feel so free mmm mmm
Making me feel so weak for your own needs
How can you feel justified yea yeaaa
Babe, when you lie, how can I, mmm
Babe, though I try, to deny, the hurt inside
And oh it’s makes me weak I fall to my knees oh
And love you hit me hard and now, I’m married to the ground
When you realize – WYR
Written by Kaitlyn Otten
It’s crazy I thought I would never get over you
The moment you left it wasn’t hard to find someone new
Every kind of man wants to fight for this hand
It seems what you couldn’t cherish is in high demand
I’m so glad you fucked shit up
now I don’t have to deal with your bad luck
focusing on my own needs now everyone care about me
Maybe you should think before you cheat and lie in your sleep
Maybe you should take the time to figure your shit out
instead of tearing everyone down with yourself doubt
I’m so free of the toxic life you lead
I’m just counting down the days till you come back and plead to me
I hope you realize what you found and realize what it’s cost
I’ve tried to put back the pieces, but you can’t with what’s lost
Eat me alive
Written by Kaitlyn Otten
Produced by Junkey
My eyes, your eyes
Hypnotized, swaying lies
Heart starving love by you is eating me alive
Yet I never die
And my mind just puddles
I don’t know if I’m just blind
But I also knew what I got into
With you With you
baby I knew
i told you i didn’t want to lay here any longer
My heart was starving – the hungry to be loved by you
Used to eat me alive but yet I never die
My mind just puddles in empty cries
I don’t know if I’m just blind, but I realize – the spiteful look you give is just the truth disguised
Waterfall
Written by Kaitlyn Otten
Like a waterfall
Fast motion but stuck in time
Hearts racing for the finish line
Yet still scared of what it holds
Like a waterfall
Can’t promise the waters flow
He promises his undying love
Unaware of what the future holds
i want you to see the rush that i feel
drop to drop tear to tear
don’t hide behind the weight of the water
drop to drop tear to tear
like a waterfall
clear as day but cold at night
you think you see all there is to hide
but no know really knows what goes on below
(like a waterfall
sweeps you away so carelessly
she gets carried away by the beauty
and forgets about the deathly fall)
i want you to see the rush that i feel
drop to drop tear to tear
don’t hide behind the weight of the water
drop to drop tear to tear
you’re my waterfall my earth my best friend
you save me
year after year step after step heart after heart break
i wish we could be there at the same time
raging water crashing over me
feelings lost but still around
guess his undying love couldn’t wait for me
just when i finally touched the ground
I Reached
Written by Kaitlyn Otten
i reached but it was just barely to my finger tips
i thought i saw you there, a vision, but what’s the difference
even when you were here you weren’t really with me
and now everything i see and hear is a reminder
when you said it was only me
please lets count how many more
and when you didn’t fight for me
it cuz you already had your foot out the door
and i’m starting to see who you really are
you just keep revealing more
i thought i had broken down all your walls
but i love hearing from your friends about the girls that you’re meetin at night
(i gave everything to trust you and nothing in return but that)
it’s cool though, i should’ve known
when you told me to let it be
look what i found out
sorry i couldn’t follow your lead
no need to pout
and now i’m starting to see just who you really are
you keep revealing more and more and more
No longer blinded by rosey hazes and colored faces
No more wakin up questioning why you’re in my bed
All I feared was his love would consume me
When my love was the only thing keeping us from dead
Maybe I can be a little too much
But you caught me off guard lying to get what you want
Now I truly see me for who I am
I deserve more than that
Where
Written by Kaitlyn Otten
Instrumental written by Ace Otten
i was writing a letter , the ink smelt of wine
i was in a hurry , but there was no time
i left tomorrow , to be there yesterday
she was a lovely place , i couldn’t find
the dark red sea , that was very green
created delusion, to what i’d seen
moving still , a burning tree
i hear laughter next to me
they filled me with , grace and hate and joy
as they , talked through my dreams
so vague, they live without a face
too fragile to , know what it means
happiness fills my veins as i start to realize
meaning of love and life begins in her eyes
mmm , woah
Not the one
Written by Kaitlyn Otten
i still like it when people ask about us
no i can’t call you friend, but before the end
i lost my voice from laughing too hard
i might have gone blind from finding who we are
and i say he’s just not the one
damn it was fun, i cherish those days
i’m thankful i got the chance to say i’ve loved, my soul entrance
i still like it when people want to know our story
makes the end feel like it wasn’t all for nothing
and you, i truly hope you’re doing well
there’s so much but we don’t need to dwell
we, we got our whole lives to live
i cant believe all that you gave me
LOVE SUCKER
Written by Kaitlyn Otten & John Ace Otten
Vocals by Kaitlyn Otten Guitar, Slide Guitar, & Bass by Ace Otten
Drum Programming by Bruce Turgon
Recorded at Ace Jet Operations by Ace Otten
I’ll suck the life right out of you
Tell me how you feel, it’s no big deal
Try to give me a piece of you
I’ll show you what’s real, show
You I don’t feel
Do (x4)
You’re no sucker for love I see That
Don’t fall hard fast, no girl in Your past
Something ‘bout the way I break
Your heart acts like a mask, forcing Feelings to last
You’re afraid of me boy, you
Have no idea what I’m about
You’re used to all these other girls
But I’m not gonna fall all over you
I’m not mean– I just know what I Want
You always close your eyes
Expecting loves’ surprise
But reality snakes it’s way in
Killing your happy end
TAUGHT TO LOVE
Written by Kaitlyn Otten & John Ace Otten
Vocals by Kaitlyn Otten
Guitar by Ace Otten
Recorded at After Hours by Bruce Turgon
He kept saying I’d learn to love him
Like it was something hard to do
And soon I taught myself how to love him
Like it was the only thing I deserved to
He kept to himself all the while
Never a clue what he was to do
I fell for the mystery and then smile
Well that’s what I taught myself to do
Where do I go now
I’m all alone now
Been stuck on this road
Everything I ever did was to hurt
You or that’s what you’d think–
Believe, make up lies
And the only truth there was
Was with me
MY FACE
Written By Kaitlyn Otten & John Ace Otten
Vocals by Kaitlyn Otten
Guitar by Ace Otten
Recorded at Snakepit Studios by Gene Smith
People fake what they believe in everyone’s searching for their face
I’m having a hard time fitting in
A hard time finding my place
We’ll run in circles trying to win this race a race
We haven’t yet faced
We’ll ruin ourselves to be first place because to you that’s your face
The difference, our frames shut us in complied to leave us in space
This living memory we’re stuck within
I believe we all have a place
We’ll run in circles trying to win this race A race
We haven’t yet faced
We’ll ruin ourselves to be first place because to you that’s your face
Finding yourself is more than just looking in a mirror
you have to look inside to see a little clearer
And to the family I’ll soon take part in with you I’ve found my place
And through this torn heart caged in here I’ve found my place
MY LEAGUE
Written By Kaitlyn Otten & John Ace Otten
Vocals by Kaitlyn Otten
Guitar & Bass by Ace Otten
Organ and Drum Programming by Bruce Turgon
Recorded at Ace Jet Operations by Ace Otten & Snake Pit Studios by Gene Smith
I’m out of your league
Got my own special needs
I do as I please
Don’t need someone else’s deeds I’m pretty damn smart
Blonde hair colored art
I’ll pick you apart
Left on the wall like a dart
You and I, a low life scholar makes a queen his bride
The king aside, unable to figure out just why
‘Cuz I’m holding all the riches, possessin’ all your wishes
Boy cross your fingers tight
‘Cuz baby I know just what
You’re thinking but babe don’t
You even try
What do you think
You’re gonna get from me
See boy there’s a key, that you won’t need ‘cuz it takes more than–
Well I could show you my heart light your fire with my spark
But would that be smart
You wouldn’t be able to play your part
You and I, you think it’s simple
But you’d have to try
You can’t be my guy, i see your
Love but I can’t reply
‘Cuz I’m holding all the riches, possessin’ all your wishes
Boy cross your fingers tight
‘Cuz baby I, I know just what
You’re thinking but babe
Don’t you even try
BLU2RD
Written By Kaitlyn Otten & John Ace Otten
Vocals by Kaitlyn
Guitar by Ace Otten
Cello by Alissa Au Johnson
Piano by John Hart produced by Gene Smith Percussion by Bruce Turgon
Pulled me and took me like your own
Gave me attention like I’ve never known
But soon the only happiness to survive you’ve shown
Only soul you cared for was your own
As you turned my days from blue to red
You made my emotions leave my head
Only to hide, they come back in the night to haunt my bed
My days go back to blue from red
Stopped letting you take the strong parts of me
Your power subsided and you couldn’t leave
I played with the weapon, how you did with me
But words cut like a knife and you knew I’d bleed
As you turned my days from blue to red
You made my emotions leave my head
Only to hide, they come back in the night to haunt my bed
My days go back to blue from red
What you give you multiply in take
Blaming everyone for your heart break
You took a piece of me I’m never getting back
But at least I don’t break people to fill the cracks
PLACEHOLDER
Written by Kaitlyn Otten
Vocals by Kaitlyn
Guitar by Kaitlyn
Recorded at After Hours by Bruce Turgon
I feel like I’m always in the way
I don’t know where to stand
Just going where people say
Don’t got a place to land
I’m more like a placeholder
Someone you keep around when you’re one person shorter
It’s easy to forget about me
When you’re having the time of your life without me
I stay where you put me in hopes you’ll see me
I let you push me
You see right through me as if I’m not real
Please don’t think about me
‘Cuz if you might I don’t think you’ll last
I silently call out to you
Hoping you’ll help without my having to ask
I’ve always been here
You’ve never known but I’ve always been near
You can’t see anything but you– oh you oh you
It’s you (x3) it’s always been you– you
I stay where you put me in hopes you’ll see me
I let you push me
You see right through me as if I’m not real— to you at all
Is it really all that hard
To think for someone but yourself
I’m kinda glad you forget about me cuz
Now I don’t have to hear you talk about yourself